"All I Can Do is the Best I Can Do"

So much for my leave of absence theory. I had initially thought that I would live a year in New Orleans, then go back to my job at the hotel. Well, this has not come to pass. There are no jobs available there and I find myself with nowhere to go. I would be really upset about not being able to return to my life in Oklahoma, but I realize it's not really mine. I don't control my own life. Let me say that again; I do not control my own life. This year I have had many excercises in letting go. This is another thing I must learn to live without. I will not have the comfort of familiar places and people. The thought of moving to a new city again is scary. The whole thing of learning your way around someplace previously unknown means memorizing new streets, working with new people, acquiesing to a new community, and starting up a whole new group of friends. I have and I will continue to job hunt, but I am not going to put so much pressure on myself anymore. Things will come in their own time.